Update

So here's a very quick update on this thing. In case you don't read this, or haven't in a while, I changed the appearance of my blog, one I thought fit a bit better. I also enabled comments, which disappeared when I changed the appearance. On the old look I had to get some html code from the web and paste into the template, however it seems that blogspot now has their own commenting system (for how long they've had this I don't know). Anyways, let me know what you think of the changes. Peace.

An Analysis of Life With Your Boss

Today I accompanied my sister to the Harbor Center; she continuing on to try on clothes at Old Navy and I leaving for Barnes & Noble to salivate over all the fantasy books that I would like but can't afford at this time. So I picked up the book that I'm currently reading (I'm borrowing it from Andrew) and went to go sit in one of the chairs near the cafe, only to run into my boss from The Main Ingredient (well ... one of my bosses. I'm not exactly sure who's considered my "boss" at that place, but these purposes she's my boss). So of course I struck up conversation with her and we got to talking about various things: the job we did yesterday (at which all five of us involved got a $100 tip from the hosts as well at $15/hour for the 10 hours we worked ... woot!), the hosts, and their house; which led to a discussion about real estate. At some point I started talking about our house in Epping Forest and off-handedly mentioned my parents' separation. So the conversation transformed into a discussion about divorces, relationships, and people in general.

While it really isn't my place to discuss her situation, I believe there're a few conclusions about relationships, people, and life in general that I have come to via my own reasoning and the conversation with Connie. First off, communication is key to a relationship. I can not tell you HOW many times I have seen people get mad, angry, and paranoid over things due to miscommunication. I've seen it happen and it's happened to me, recently in fact ... as in the past week. Do you know how my concerns were resolved? By asking someone about the thing I have been a little bit concerned with. So many times people jump to hasty conclutions (myself included) about people, things, and situations. If people would simply listen to what OTHERS are saying and feeling, rather than only themselves, soooooooo many problems would be avoided or peacefully solved. Instead people get angry and frustrated, causing undue stress and complications where they could have been easily avoided ... aka ... people make mountains out of mole hills.

With listening and communcation comes understanding. Something that Connie brought up was that not only is communication key - communcating your feelings and thoughts to others - but understanding is key as well; indeed understanding is part of communcation. Without understanding others' perspectives, we cannot solve that which needs to be solved and we cannot effectively communcate. Without understanding people are essentially oneway transmitters - sending but not receiving - and often times those receivers are broken - doing neither then sending nor ther receiving. If people simply took a step back from the events surrounding them and tried to understand, again, soooooooo many probelms would be avoided.

I have seen so many communication problems: with my parents, with coworkers, with my friends. I do indeed believe that communcation and understanding are the two foundations for a relationship. For without these two things, one can not have either trust or respect for those one loves, two others that I believe many people would agree to be two very important factors.

Another emotion that Connie brought up was anger; how consuming it is and how long people tend to focus on it. People spend so much time consuming their lives with negative emotions in general. Look at the world around us. How many times to you turn on the tv and see four or five various murders for that week? How many times do you hear about the war in Iraq and the suicide bombings in the Middle East? How many times have you heard about wars started because of religous pregudice and hatred? There is so much anger in this world, and so many people allow themselves to be consumed of it, allow it to guide their actions and prevent any logical reasoning to occur. As many say, "Life is too short." Life really is too short for us to allow such negative emotions consume us for so long. While many a times these emotions are reasonable and solidly founded, we still spend too much time grieving and fuming. People need to learn to, as the saying goes, "Roll with the punches," aka, "Go with the flow." Life throws us so many unknowns. There is no possible way that anyone's life can be absolutely perfect; there is no way that anyone won't have a single thing going wrong; and there is no way that we can find happiness and serenity in our lives if we allow these imperfections to control our lives. Part of living is learning to cope and deal with the inconsistancies and things that we have NO control over. What we CAN control, however, is our reactions to these imperfections that life throws at us.

I am not saying that I am not guilty of any of the things I have mentioned. In fact I am, in many ways, the reason I have come to these conclusions. I have seen these flaws in myself and in the past year I have merely come to realise the stupidity of it all - the lack of anything gained through such feelings and actions, and only the harm that negative emotions and lack of communication cause. Therefore I am swearing here that I will give my best efforts to control my own anger and frustrations over the stresses in my life, and I will give my best efforts to better communicate and empathize with those in my life.

Morford out.

Another Day ... Another Post

hmmm ... November of last year ... it's been a while (as always with my posting).

School

Well over the span of the last two semesters life has sucked ... in pretty much every department. I did decently in school first semester (for engineering anyways), pumping out a 3.1; however this past semester I pumped out a 2.1. Yeah ... ouch. I failed my first course - my java course - which severely lowered my gpa. So overall my gpa is a 2.54 right now. Trust me ... these kind of grades are NOT what I'm trying to accomplish. The one thing I was glad about was that I got a B in my ECE course -- I was afraid I'd get a C instead ... but I was able to pull off the B.

I found it really difficult to take my studies seriously. I had no interest in anything that I was doing last semester except the band I was in (symphonic band), which I enjoyed immensly. My band rehersals were really the only bright spots to my week. Originally I came into school as a Computer Engineer, only to switch to Electical Engineering (the more general degree) a little into first semester. After I decided that I absolutely despised my courses (*especially* my Matlab and Java courses) I decided to change my major *again* - this time to Management - and did so towards the end of 2nd semester, and, surprisingly enough, I'm still considering whether that was a smart move - whether I should go to something else entirely. I don't think I know what I want out of college, or even life in general. When I graduated I thought I had it all planned out - that everything would just fall into place like the pieces of a puzzle. Then I got thrown some curve balls and I'm still trying to recover my stance. I also think that I've been wallowing in my own god damned unhappiness for so long that it's hard to even imagine a major - and a life - with which I'd be happy.

So what do I want? I could say I want to "get a degree, find a girl, get married, have kids, and retire." Sounds easy enough right? yeah ... hah ... sure. I used to be pretty idealistic with lots of things - annnnnd I suppose those "curve balls" was life kicking my ass off the comfortable little cloud I was sitting on. So now I'm still falling and trying to find some kind of foothold. ok ok ... I'll stop with the metaphors. I can't really say much more ... I don't even know how to start analyzing anything about myself right now because I'm just ... lost (kinda like the tv show ... yeah).

So as well as chaning my major to Management 2nd semester, I also went to the Career Services office at Tech and started talking to one of their advisors. I took a couple tests - two of 'em being the Briggs-Myers Personality Test and a Career Interest Inventory Test. I still have yet to get any results because I need to actually make a two hour appointment with my advisor and go down there and discuss it with her. I hoping that this'll help me, at least a little bit, with solidifying some kind of major decision.

Relationships

hah .... these are always a doozy aren't they? I don't even know where to begin. I think I'm about as lost about 'ships as I am about what I want to do with the rest of my life. I think I just might start taking Jordan's outlook on this stuff. "Don't go after it ... let it come to you." That seems to be the safer road at the moment, seeing as how I seem to have awful luck with these things (and I'm talking about more than one instance here). I seem to have a damn annoying habit of drawing things out and making them more dramatic than they need to be. I know I do it ... and I hate it. I just need to kind of ... get on with life. There was a girl at work (The Main Ingredient Catering in case anyone was wondering) that I've been thinking about asking on a date ... haven't gotten around to it because I haven't seen her in a week. O well ... whatever. I'll probably do a party with her again ... I can ask then. I just need to move on. There's more to life than wallowing in your own god damned misfortuned events. It seems I need to learn to roll with the punches.

The Present

So this summer not much is happening. So far I only have a few things on my agenda: working, getting my musical abilities back up to par, biking to get into shape, possibly 3-7 days down in Atlanta towards the end of June to get my career thing out of the way and to visit some buds down there, and Marching Band camp at the end of the summer. I'm working, or trying to at least, at The Main Ingredient Catering. It's not a bad job. It pays damned well: $15/hour and if you do deliveries (which I have not done yet) there's a chance you'll get a tip from the customer. There're a couple things that I like about it more than I have my other jobs: it's very social (unlike Graul's where I would spend 3 hours straightening the god damned isles with no one to talk to) and there is hardly any down time. So all in all it's an ok job. It's much better than most other jobs I've had.

hmmm ... I can't think of much else to talk about. I'll see if I find anything to talk about in this thing this summer.

Morford's Musings is back in business

So I'm gonna finally follow through with my intentions on updating this thing. I haven't done anything with it since sometime before the break-up. Needless to say it's time to put some content into this thing. I'm also in one of those introspective moods where I need to either talk to someone or write something in one of theses where everyone will read it anyways. The latter would be the best idea seeing as how I hate bugging people with my problems and taking up their own time with my own complaints, thoughts, concerns, and issues. Anyways ... here it goes ....

Man ... so much shit has happened in the past four months. I never thought I could have had so many huge life events in that short of a period. *sighs* Lets go through them one-by-one shall we? First off, as I mentioned before, I broke it off with Han sometime around the second or third week in July. Why did I break up with her? I all honesty I don't know ... I really don't. The most I can do is speculate. I was so happy with her ... it was honestly the best time in my life. Then the little safety bubble that I had be shrouded in popped and gave me a few eye openers. See ... my dad asked my mom for a separation about a week before I broke up with Han. Now that I look back on it, it's almost ironic. Like father like son? Good god I hope not.

I was so confused ... and I still am. Practically everything in my life so far has deteriorated except some personal relationships. The only two family members that I really have any respect for anymore are my mom and sister. I used to be close to my aunt (one of my dad's two sisters) ... but I really don't know. During that whole time my mom would tell me things, my dad would tell me things, and then my aunt would try to protect my father. Why? Why would she want to protect him? Fuck it if he's her brother ... if my sister has issues I'll let her know. I'll always be there for Hana, but hell if she has issues I'm going to let her know. Basically everyone in my family hates each other right now. Most of it is old news, but it's still sad - very sad. Ever since my grandfather died and my grandmother had a stroke (she's now dead) my mom has been on edge with her sisters and her adopted brother. I won't get into specifics because I could write a whole other 3 or 4 pages just on that fiasco. My dad is one of 5 children. I know he's on good relations with one of them and sketchy relations with two of them. One of his brothers hates the world. I don't even know the man. I'm related to him but I haven't seen him since I was like 3 years old. Then there's the thing with my mom and my dad.

For the past four years my respect for my father has been dwindling, but it never completely evaporated until now. He and my mom had a few problems but I thought they were able to work through them. My mom suffers from migranes and she had an episode where the meds she took worked almost too well, making her go into a druken/coma type state. She would fall asleep standing up making dinner. There were times where my sister and I had to call my dad at work. My mom got over that episode and now functions on much much much more practical medicines. My dad then went through a period of alcoholism. When he came home from work, all he did was drink. He was able to get over that by giving up wine. Instead of having alcohol with dinner he would drink water. He made a comeback but he wasn't there. My mom told me, after they separated, that there were times in the past four years that my dad actually physically hit her. I do not care HOW fucking angry you are at your wife, your brother, sister, aunt, uncle, you name it. There is NO ... I reapeat NO fucking reason to hit a family member - especially one weaker than yourself. Hell the only reason you should hit a non-family member is out of self-defense. When she told me that I wanted to go give the fucking bastard a taste of his own medicine. Unfortunately, I inherited my father's temper. I can keep it in check, however, and I don't get annoyed or pissed nearly as easily as I might have 2 or 3 years ago. Now the asshole is trying to screw my mom over financially. He makes 100 grand a year - twice as much as my mom makes. He TOLD me that at one point ... I think he might even make 2 or 3 grand over that. Now he's trying to claim that he only makes 85 or 90 a year. He's trying to push half of my college tuition on my mother when he makes twice as much as she does. The summer after my 7th grade year, we almost completely renovated the 1st level of our house. Then about two years ago we took out the carpeting in the upper level of our house and put in wooden flooring that matches the rest of our house. Finally, about a year ago we finished up the project by adding on a garage, changing the siding on the house, and adding a patio outside of my parents' bedroom. A HUGE portion of the money that my mom inherited when both of her parents died went into these improvments in the house. Now my mom most likely won't get her inheritence back when she sells the house. Because of what my dad did, he had to leave the house. My mom and I couldn't live there with him there anymore. He thought that he could ask for a separation and then still enjoy all of the benefits from living in the same house. My mom doesn't have the money or time to maintain a house designed for 3 or 4 people. She actually moved into the house she's renting today.

That's only a taste of the bullshit that my father has pulled. I don't even understand all of it. The point is this. After about 23 or 24 years of marriage, he quit. He couldn't last long enough to get either myself or my sister through college. This is my sister's last year and my first year. Something Lisa said made me think about this the other night. She said that in Indian culture, divorce is frowned upon; that the parents keep going for the sake of the children. They keep going so the children always have a sanctuary to go to and that they don't have extra stressors in their lives that they shouldn't have to deal with. My father couldn't have picked a worse time to pull this shit. He really couldn't have ...

Now about the breakup... there's only one thing that I can think of that would have had such an effect on me that I would break up with Han. Any takers? That's right ... my dad and all the shit surrounding that issue. When my dad separated from my mom, as I stated before, I was thrown into turmoil. When I get extremely upset, depressed, and such, I alienate myself from everyone. There are very few people who I will talk to about things when I am upset. I talk more than I did my junior year - namely because I didn't have anyone I could talk to my junior year. Han couldn't have done anything different. It wasn't her fault. I don't put any blame on her whatsoever ... and she has full right to be pissed off at me. Luckily we've been able to smooth things over so to speak. But basically I think I alienated myself from Han as well as others. I retreated in to that shell that I know so well.

I don't care what anyone else trys to tell me: I loved Han. I really did. I'd never felt so strongly about anyone in my entire life. I spent the majority of my senior chasing after her. Some might call it fickle love ... or even lust, but I'd have to disagree. The time that I spent with her, as simple as it might have been, were some of the better times I've had in my life - and I can honestly say that I miss them. Even just hanging out downtown annapolis was enjoyable. We really didn't do anything, but the fact that I was with her made it worth it. Don't get me wrong; I don't want to get back together with her. I still care about her in that friend kind of way - a part of my feelings that didn't go away. They just went into the shell, withered, and died. I don't know how else to explain the situation. *shrugs* I know that some people in Han's group have labled me as an utter jackass, which is understandable. My group of friends doesn't exactly like her at all either, though for reasons other than the breakup. Kester actually was a little POed at me about that. She has her own reasons, but I understood. I really didn't mean to hurt her ... one reason why I was going to try to wait out the feelings I was going through. I was acting odd the week between my parents' separation and the breakup. Han wanted to know what was going on with me, and for good reason. I just so happened to be questioning the feelings I had for her, which were still there, but they were in hiding. So I broke it off.

So for now I'm going to see what happens with Han. I'm pretty confident that we'll be able to get at least a quasi-friendship going. Over fall break we were still able to have a 5 hour phone conversation ... something that we used to do all the time - though most of it was online. As for my dad ... I'm not even talking to the bastard. He can go fuck himself for all I care. I don't want anything to do with him.

And that my friends ... is that.

The Beach and Soccer

Ok so I've been really lazy about updating this thing ... right now I'm a bit bored and tired so I'm gonna update.

I got back from beach week yesterday. Overall I enjoyed myself (I particularly enjoyed the person in my apartment - who shall remain unamed - running smack into the sliding glass door to the balcony). I really didn't do a whole hell of a lot. Mostly sat on the beach or bummed around the apartment with paul. I accompanied Steph and the girls on the boardwalk several times (one of which paul even came). The whole group of us went miniture golfing one night and bowling another night. Sadly I gained no clubbing experience. Honestly, I need a male group of buds to go do that with; not that I really think I'd enjoy it all that much, but it's a good experience if nothing else. Nikki sure had some stories to tell ... which I won't delve into here, but I will say that they're interesting and quite amusing.

Today was fairly uneventful. I woke up at 7:10 (bleh) to go to work, got home around 1:15 and bummed around for a bit. At one point I went outside and started playing around with the soccer ball. I've forgotten how much I loved that game. I played it (on a team) from kindergarden through sophomore year .... that's 11 freaking years of playing soccer: well over half of my life. Georgia Tech should have some intramural soccer teams that I could join next year. If fencing doesn't work out for me I'll probably just join one of those ... hell I'll join one anyways. I think I'm also going to try and joing a brass quintet; and if they don't have one then I'll form one. Soccer and the trumpet are two things I don't think I'll want to give up fully. I've done fine not playing soccer for two years, but I would really enjoy it if I could get back in the game (and get back in shape).

hmmm ... never said anything about graduation did I? It went pretty well. Ms. Plitt added an extra chair onto the row I was in because there appeared to be a shortage of chairs in the row. As it turns out there ended up to be about two extra chairs when all was said and done ... so I stuck out a bit. My aunt, two cousins, me mum and dad, my sister, and my granddad all made it to graduation. Apparently my aunt sat next to Mr. Manbeck and had told him how she hopes that the kids at GT won't corrupt me next year lol. One thing that surprised me was Han's mom. I saw her up there taking pictures but it kinda surprised me when she started taking some of me ... after giving me a big grin. It surprised me but it also cheered me up a bit. I don't think she heard my "thank you" when she said "congradulations" though ... hmmm ... might've still been in a bit of a shock. But yeah ... another surprise was Chris Hall's mom ... gave me a kiss on the cheek when we all got outside. I've never had someone's mom do that. O it's no big deal but I was a little surprised. Anyways, Moller, Chris, some other guys, and I got some nice pictures after graduation ... very James Bond-like if I do say so myself.

After graduation I got together with the four gals (Steph, Nikki, Katie, Kester) and Chris Fritz. We all went over to steph's house for some graduation cards, refreshments, and we watched a movie that had our year documentaries. Nikki's mom did that at the pre-prom at Nikki's house.

So that has been my life up until this point. Right now I'm just working. I need to make plans for the 4th of July though. I might see if Chris wants to go into DC. That'd be pretty sweet. Anyways ... until next time. *salutes.*

Been a bum

Ok so I've been a bit of a bum - I haven't felt like updating this thing for a while. The last time I tried it wouldn't update for some reason and so I gave up on it. Anyways, recent happenings:

- Prom: had a lot of fun, despite the fact that most of the music wasn't that great, except, of course, the song which I recommended: Lets Get it On by Marvin Gaye. That's a classic man... definately some good music right there. O and my date was absolutely gorgeous ... couldn't have asked for better. :-D

- AP tests: are over! Thank the lord. Yeah I only took three, but I'm still glad they're over. They all went decently (calc, psych, and physics) although I definately did better on some parts than others, which is to be expected I suppose.

And things to come:

- HSAs and Senior Exams: Next week is senior exams and HSAs; which means we (meaning everyone except freshmen, mostly) get to come in 3 hours late, and then starting tuesday the seniors have exams. My last exam on June 1st is Band ... how great is that? I won't even have to study over the course of the weekend.

- Graduation: wow ... it really doesn't feel like I should be going anywhere; although I'm certainly glad I'm getting out of this crap pot. I think I've just about had enough of high school. There're some things that I'll definately miss - mostly the people (some more than others)- but I really am glad that I don't have to come back here next year.

- Beach Week: that should be lots of fun. Paul will be with me so hopfully he'll help keep me sane with the four gals that'll also be there. I don't know how much clubbing I'll do, but we'll see.

Now I will leave you with a time consuming survey I stole from Han:

1. Sensible or delirious? hmm ... I can be delirious ... though I'd have to say sensible for the most part
2. Marilyn Manson or Destiny's Child? *ahem* neither.
4. What song are u listening to right now? Come Together - The Beatles
5. What was the last thing that you said? umm ... explaining to a very drowsy mother why I woke her up - she had the light on and a book on her stomache.
6. What is next to you right now? lots of stuff. A computer obviously, cds, books, etc.
7. What is your computer desk made of? wood! Imagine that.
9. What was the last thing that you ate or drank? Spaghetti - my dinner.
10. If you were a crayon, what colour would u be? blue! hmmm ... probably a nice royal blue.
11. Where do you want to go on your honeymoon? somewhere nice and relaxing ... preferably warm. I'm thinking Tahiti or the Caribbean.
12. Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with? That's a good question. :-p
13. Do you have a lava lamp? no but I'd like too. hmm ... something to get for college?
14. How many buddies do you have on your list? *looks at his list* 44 ... although I barely even talk to 10 of 'em.
15. How is the weather right now? dark ... probably cool and humid as well.
16. Have you ever smoked pot? nope.
17. What did you do last weekend? prom, steph's recital, and a day at Chris's house putting together our physics project.
18. Last person that you talked to on the phone? errr ... I called the insurance rep. today but didn't actually talk to her ... so probably that guy Tyre who called me after school when I was in Manbeck's room doing the calc presentation w/ chris.
19. What's the WORST thing that you find about the opposite sex? probably that they were hairier than I was ... at least physically ... or maybe that they were secretly a male that had a sex change ... one of those.
20. Who do you admire? hmmm ... lots of people; but there isn't anyone I idolize.
22. Do you like the person who sent this to you? yep I do.
23. How are you today? fine thanks. How're you?
25. Who makes you happy? friends. :-D Many other things ... but that's the major one right there.
26. Fave CD? lots of 'em.
27. Fave Dream?
28. Nicknames? none that are really used, but Dan J. (can't spell the last name lol) dubbed me "Yoda"; hence the name of this blogger. Andrew Bennit dubbed me "Squirtle" trying to make fun of me, but failing miserably.
29. How old are you? 18 ... I'm legal for porn and cigarettes. ;)
31. eye colour? I rather like my eyes ... green with a cool little inner ring of brown. Sunburst as Nikki once called them.
32. ever had a brace? errr ... brace for a leg or arm? or braces? nay for the first, yay for the second.
33. Do you wear contacts? yep.
34. Siblings and their age? Hana ... 21.
35. Who do you consider to be your favourite friend? hmmm ... I dunno. Probably Steph, Han, Chris, and Paul.
36. What is your favourite thing to do? lol you're asking a very indecisive person here.
37. What was the best advice u have been given? no clue
38. Dream car? actually attainable? Mini Cooper! dream would be a fully customized Aston Martin.
39. Have you ever won any special awards? haha ... not particularly.
40. What do you want to be when you grow up? an engineer ... haha ... we'll see if that happens.
42. fave music? lol I like a lot of stuff.
43. Favorite food? again ... very unfair question as there exist many good foods and some I prefer more than others when I'm in different moods.
44. Who is the funniest person that you know? I'd say Rodney Dangerfield but I don't know him. Too bad.
45. Fave movies? The Last Samurai!!!! among others...
46. Fave mini-series? Friends ... sadly it ended.
47. fave month? eh ... Dec. due to long breaks from school, my b-day, and xmas. April for weather.
48. Fave cologne? umm ... whatever the stuff is up in my bathroom ... forgot the name of it :-p
50. Do you like to dance? of course.
51. Fast or slow? hmmm ... they're both good.
52. what's the most romantic thing you've ever done? well I really haven't had much of a romantic life up to this point ... so I have no clue
53. If you could change your name what would it be? Xavier... really cool name.
54. Worst sickness that you ever had? hmmm ... probably the worst migraine I've ever had, even though that's not a sickness.
55. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? nope. But I did as a little kid.
56. Have u ever been in love? yep. :)
57. What is the stupidest thing that you ever did? haha ... not going there.
58. What will your first daughter's name be? err ... haven't gotten there yet.
59. First son? again ... haven't gotten there yet
60. Favourite drink? PEPSI!
61. Do you like scary or happy movies better? happy ... not really one for scary movies, though some are ok.
62. On the phone or in person? in person def.
63. Night or day? no preference really. Although it depends on the activity we're talking about *grins*
64. Summer or Rainy days? summer.
65. Lust or love? love
66. Kisses or hugs? hmmm ... well apparently I'm a "smoochie" fiend... AND a "huggle" fiend. So both? At least for Sig. others. Hugs for the rest.
67. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? probably my phyiscal abilities. I really need to get into shape. Hopefully fencing will take care of that next year.

Rantings

I swear I'm about *this* close to needing a room with padded walls. Tonight I got into an accident; rather, I should say someone found it amusing to make a left hand turn from the 3rd lane over. How fucking STUPID can someone be? Honestly ... 3 lanes. So the exact details:

I was driving in baltimore when I made a left from .... errr .. don't remember the name of the street, but that's irrelevent...anyways; I made a left onto Greene street. Now the layout of greene st. is like so:
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ok. So Greene St. is a 4-lane road. Normally the two far lanes are full of parked cars and traffic uses the middle 2 lanes. Well I turned left onto Greene St. (from bottom of my little image) and another car made the same left in the lane to the right of me. There was a car with it's emergency blinkers on parked in the far left lane right near the intersection. I was in the 2nd lane over and the car that hit me was in the 3rd lane over. The car to the right of me was a little ahead of me and it all of a sudden turned sharply to the left and I didn't have time to stop from running into it.

I'm fucking tired of car troubles. First the Jetta gets totaled from a fucking IDIOT who wanted to make a left hand turn when I was about 5ft. from entering the intersection (I also have a nice scar from that accident), the Mercedes had a few cylinders blow up, and now someone else decides to fucking run into me.

You know what takes the cake? The asshole, with a very lovely string of "fuck," comes over and tells me how *I* hit HIM. I was in utter shock and he could tell. He said, "Don't look at me like you're stupid."

hahahaha ... you're the dumb fuck here buddy, not me. I'm all for having special classes teaching people how to make left hand turns ... and making them REQUIRED; because obviously people have problems knowing where the turning lanes are, and judging distances of cars.

I feel like ripping something apart. I'm pissed like a fucking bat outta hell. I just .... GRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*bangs his head on the wall* someone put me out of my misery... please.